As artists, we are usually our own worst critics.
It took me an while to show my artwork to others because it was so personal. It was my way of downloading experience, calming my mind and obtaining clarity. Later, it became my method of emptying my mind… and a practice meditative of transcendence. Most recently, I’ve been creating mandalas to help me remember and meditate upon my vivid nighttime dreams.
The past week or so, I’ve been organizing my work and have come across doodles, drawings and pieces I deemed ‘not good enough’ to show. Parts of myself hidden away. Yet, when go to galleries or art shows, I’m most drawn to personal, raw and often, simple pieces that an artist may show. So, why are mine not good enough? Why do I insist on keeping stacks and stacks of drawings and doodles, and yet… hide them? Yes… some, have made their way into the recycling bin, but the ones that made the cut, like them or not, I intend to post. It’s my way of sharing more of my process, myself and moving beyond perfectionism. An impossible place to exist, anyway.
So, in the inspiration of this quote from Martha Graham, I’m excited (and scared) to share more of my work!
“There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is nor how valuable nor how it compares with other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep yourself open and aware to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open. … No artist is pleased. [There is] no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is only a divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others”
― Martha Graham